Now that I am 40 something, I can look back at my life and really comprehend that saying "Life is a Rollercoaster" There have been times in my life where nothing has gone right, and I have had to dig myself out of some deep $h1t but these were all just temporary storms that passed rather quickly.
Recently, I had been on the uphill climb, with 3 beautiful, healthy children and a husband whom I adore. I was making good money working from home, and my husband had a great job as a pharmaceutical sales rep. Our coaster climbed higher and higher but then it was time for the drop..... Hubby was laid off for a year, and when he finally got a job, I got laid off. We were spoiled with a company car, and with his new job, one was not provided. Now we have bills out the wazoo and two clunker cars that we just can't keep running.
At this point, I should mention that I am addicted to new age self help books and it is buggin' me that I sound so whiney right now. I am supposed to be looking for the things that I can be thankful for. I should be looking at things the way I want to see them, not as they really are. I should be applying the positive thinking techniques that all of my books have taught me. But today.... I cannot. I think everyone deserves a day to wallow a bit in self pity before we pick ourselves up, dust off and get on the positive bandwagon again.
Today, I am at the very bottom of the steepest hill, but I look forward to tomorrow and the next day, with the hopes that I will hear the tick- tick- tick of the uphill climb again.
